53. Elaborate

A few people have asked about my last blog post: 52. Analyze.

Thank you for caring. About me. About others. About the world. 

I don't feel called to elaborate on what I wrote. Though in short, that's what the post was about. The fact that I don't feel called to elaborate.

As someone who's always put the mind on a pedestal, I'm used to thinking, writing, and talking things out. But recently, there's been a lot that I don't feel like talking about. Sometimes even attempting to communicate can be overwhelming, unhelpful, and retraumatizing.

Instead, I've been processing my emotions somatically and energetically rather than intellectually. Which is new. And I’m settling into this space of not needing to verbalize every experience.

Of course, this post itself is an elaboration. Because part of me doesn’t want to feel misunderstood. And part of me doesn’t want anyone who read my last post to worry.

I gently remind myself that how you receive or interpret what I write is out of my control.

As soon as my words meet your eyes, they transform into something that lives within you.

That’s the magic.